Well team 2 is finally gone and the 4 interns are all alone! I don't know if I speak for everyone else but I am really missing home and missing the team!!! It has finally become a reality that this is the next 6 months of our lives (23 weeks, 165 days, 3,960 hours, ect) Its hard to believe that the next time I will see the states it probably will be freezing, NFL season will be ending (we arrive home super bowl Sunday afternoon, just in time to party of course), and my 23rd birthday will only be a month away! I don't think life has ever felt the real before.
Feeling this homesick brings me back to my freshman year of college. I remember how deserted and how alone I felt with out my family. I wanted to love the newly found freedom, but being away from what I knew was scary and intimidating. It didn't help that before I even got to Campbell I decided that I was not going to like it. I didn't even make it the weekend. The minute I heard my roommate was leaving for Myrtle Beach I called my mom and told her I needed her to come get me. I so much wish I could call my mom and tell her to come get me now. For some reason I can't wrap my mind around the fact that I am miles and miles away from her. That home is half way across the world.
Yesterday was spent doing school work and watching TV. I felt like wallowing and being mopey and unhappy. I was angry at the team for leaving, even though I knew that was irrational, and I was sad that I wasn't going with them. I struggled with the fact that I had chosen to stay. Nobody made that choice for me, I had decided that on my own and I was angry at myself for making that decision. Looking online caused me to be even angrier. I was angry at the people who were still living their lives, who were having fun, who were going on with out me. I was sad that everyone wasn't sad, that I felt alone. Misery loves company: I have never experienced the truth in that statement until now. Most of all I became angry at God. He should have stopped me, given me a sign that told me not to come, given me more of a reason to stay. I wanted Him to tell me that I needed to be home, that there was more purpose for me there than there was here. My prayers, as sometimes prayers can be, were more like arguments with God. I begged him not to make me stay here. God should have known that I couldn't handle this. God should have remembered my freshman year of college and realized that I haven't grown as much as I thought I did. And I think He was sad for me. I think he felt my pain, and I felt like He was sympathetic. God patiently waited, and when I was done yelling, and when I was done being angry at Him; He answered me:
Psalm 23: 1-6 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He
makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He
restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name's
sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I
will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they
comfort me. You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
I was reminded that David, one of the most faithful men in the bible, was scared too. David was often so scared in fact, that he continuously disobeyed God and yet God continued to love him and provided for him always!
Isiah 41:13 For I, the Lord your God, hold your right hand; it is I who say to you, “Fear not, I am the one who helps you.”
Proverbs 3:5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do
not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.
John 16:33 I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the
world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the
world.”
Psalm 119:105 Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.
Matthew 6:25-34 “
Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will
eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on.
Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the
birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and
yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than
they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his
span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the
lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I
tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of
these. But
if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and
tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you. Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear? the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. the kingdom of God and his righteousness,and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."
God knows that I am human. He knows that I am scared and He knows what I can and cannot handle. God knows my every thought, He knows what makes me excited, and He knows what makes me sad. God never planned for life to be easy. He never planned for it to be fun. But He clearly says many times that if we do things in His name he will always watch over us and protect us. That He won't leave us, and that He won't let us down. He knows that I want to be home, and He knows that I am sad, but He also knows the things I don't know. The things that are to come. I believe that He will never let me down, that He would not send me on this adventure just to fail or to be unhappy. I have to have faith that there is something that I am going to accomplish here.
Knowing this does not make it easy. I still miss my friends, my mom (a lot, Hey Mom!!), and my nice clothes. I miss driving my car and I really miss plain chicken, and clean bathrooms. However, knowing that God has a plan, makes it easier to push through. It makes me not want to give up and it makes me happy to know that the future holds something special. It makes me appreciative of what I have. Happy to know that in 6 months I will go home to the people and things that I love, and humbles me to know that I can go home, when some people can not. It makes me grateful for what I have and happy that I am blessed. If this is the only lesson I learn here, it will be worth it!!
I would hate for you to get this far just to end it with out funny stories or comedic relief from our last week!! Here you go, the top funniest pictures and things that happened to our medical team.
11. BALLOONS!!! In India balloons equal chaos as we found out many times the hard way during our kidjams. The kids love the balloons so much they will fight anyone off for one and try to grab it out of your mouth while you are blowing it up. Even the adults get a little crazy over balloons. We learned our lesson by the last kidjam though and decided to skip out on the balloons.
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We decorated Beth and Emily's door for Beth's 20th birthday!!! |
10. Chicken Resuscitation. One of our team members, Allison, was trying to catch a baby chick, but was failing miserably. One of the locals tried to help her but accidentally killed the baby chicken in the process. Instead of accepting defeat he tried to give the chicken mouth to mouth (which did not work). It was a sad ending, but surely funny to watch!!
9. New Glasses!!!
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Couple with their new glasses! |
8. Our never ending quest for plain chicken. When we asked for Chicken Cutlet this is what we got:
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chicken heart? |
7. Setting fireworks off on stage, while music is playing. At one of the concerts a man kept setting off his homemade fireworks on stage, among all the electrical equipment, during the music. It was extremely loud and a serious fire hazard, but funny none the less!
6. The power going out. The power in India goes out unexpectedly at the worst times ever. Whether it was during a concert or at a medical clinic the power would go out with out warning. The best was watching the locals try to fix it by cutting wires and rubbing cut wires together...scary!!!
5. I blessed and anointed a pregnant lady's belly. This is something that I never thought I would ever do in my entire life. I was pulled of the bus and handed oil and shown a big belly (7 months pregnant). Obviously I prayed over it and rubbed the oil on it. Haha, still can't tell you how I am feeling about that. Honored a little, weirded out a little, but funny!!
4. Over 50 extremely intense games of UNO. Thank goodness for UNO! It prevented us from being carsick, bored, and kept us up late way too many nights. I have never played UNO so competitively though, some games lasted over 30 minutes. Great for team bonding though!
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Allison playing UNO (and losing I think) |
3. Pottying with a cobra nearby! In one of the Child Development Centers we visited the bathroom was behind a small brick building. Our team was out in the middle of no where and it was a wide open field. Three of us went back there to use "the bathroom" and right after we came out they went back and pulled out a cobra that had been "watching us". Obviously it was promptly killed, but it was a little terrifying knowing that we could have been bit in a very uncomfortable place by a very poisonous snake!! We were a little more careful about checking before we went to the bathroom! Which brings me to.....
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Some of the girls and I at the Child Development Center with the Cobra! |
2. POTTY PARTY!!! Thank goodness for Beth and Becca and their small bladders, just like mine. We seemed to find a more interesting place to relieve ourselves everywhere we went! We experienced potties from porcelain thrones to "squatty potties" to holes in the ground to slabs of concrete!!! Whenever I needed to go I could always count on them to accompany me. Each time seemed to be better than the next! But the best place....
1. Peeing in a church kitchen. We thought we had struck gold when we came upon this small building that looked like a bathroom. It had a slab of concrete, like many of the other bathrooms we had experienced, laid across two smaller rocks. We used the bathroom happily and went about our day. When we came back to go again we came across women cooking in that same place and we realized we had mistaken a kitchen for a bathroom!!!! How embarrassing!!!! Even worse we ended up having to eat the food they were cooking, I guess thats what we get!! Welcome to India!!
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Eating the Dinner the Village prepared with us and YES we are eating with our hands India Style!! Make sure to only use your right hand ;) |
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Much Love to all!! Missing everyone!
Grace